When the going... Goes Alone..

I could start with when the going gets tough but lets face it, it'll always be tough but the real challenge is facing it alone, no support and no pity just juggling the depths of despair with two arms and sleep deprived eyes.

You could say that having twins has changed me and in all seriousness it has, maybe for the better, maybe for the worst but some change is always for the best. A partnership is supposed to be an equal support system, not one that a member of the party picks and chooses what responsibilities he or she completes. When the going gets alone.. You suck it up. The other half of the party does not wish to join in on the newfound fun. The fun that has earned the main party goer, eight cups of coffee and a major headache the next day. Should I also mentioned that sleep deprivation affects the mind. When you place clothes into your wash but walk away to feed the threenager who won't stop screaming mommy because forbid he doesn't eat right then and there. You come back to the wash hours later before you go to the store and realize you hadn't turned it on. Sleep deprivation is when 2+2 is 5 and the argument is invalid because you can carry the 1.

When you have to do things alone you really start to evaluate the world around you and make a plan for how things should go, the sudden OCD kicks in and everything that feels out of place gets moved or tossed to the curb where it belongs because when your forced to go at things alone you adjust and some adjustments do not have room for those who don't care.

Learning even at my young age that people will do as people please, whether they have the biggest heart of gold or they are wrenched no good users who are only looking for personal gain. You have to do what you feel is the best and wasted time is best regained by removing what causes the loss in the first place.

If your going.. Goes Alone, reevaluate, take charge and demand a refund because you shouldn't be forced to adjust if you do not want to..

Thank you,
Maddie